i'm sick, you're tired, let's dance

The last few days of the year have been so great. But the miniscule amount of joy I experience cannot make up for the majority of 2009 that really sucked. (YAY 2010 IS REALLY COMING!) Hmm so what made Jasmine happy?

Dance BBQ was awesome as expected. It shall always be awesome with my lovely dancers. I miss doing silly things with them, buying bubble tea, attempting stunts, dancecamwhoring, stretching, chatting, complaining, laughing and getting high, discussing anything dance, celebrating birthdays, decorating dance boards, chummying with teachers, piggybacking, etc. Okay not about to reminisce more! I am here to say that I enjoyed cooking, playing volleyball, eating, picture-taking and all that from the BBQ.

JIALING AND JOLENE ARE YOU READING THIS! I want the rest of the picturesssssss! Pleaseplease.

As for you, I've missed all the above forementioned dance moments with you too + everything else we've had. I'm sorry the time we spent together on Tuesday was so rushed and I don't think we communicated much. And note that these photos shall only serve as an appetizer to the main course on 4th of January! BEWARE OR BE EXCITED.

I'm so happy I went for the master classes the past two days! I really had A LOT OF FUN doing all the more advanced enchainements, especially those with turns. But not all the petit allegro though, I'm not talented for that unfortunately. Truly, William Forsythe couldn't have named his ballet any better - The Vertiginous Thrill of Exactitude is just what I experience with every clean pirouette I make, or the very occasional neat fouette. I JUST LOVE TURNS. And we did so many turns in the classes! But my mostly horrible fouettes need to be excused I JUST DID THEM FOR THE FIRST TIME IN CLASS OKAY.

Overview: Ng Kin Wee is a really nice person, and an impressive dancer obviously. Day One's class was much tougher and a lot more fast-paced. I guess since everyone was tired and aching from the previous day's madness Day Two's class was held at a pace one can actually follow (or perhaps we were getting a hang of his way of teaching already). Sigh, Neoyun you missed one heck of a class on day two. :( We did the Swan Lake pas de trois variation (altered) and it was so ADORABLE I can't not say that!!! It's just so cute and so crazily fun to do! Though some steps were still tricky.

BY THE WAY, THANK YOU JONI FOR TREATING ME LIKE EVERY FOOD/DRINK THE WHOLE NIGHT! OH AND I LOVE HUANG SHU JIA. HAHAHAHAHA!

I wish I can go for more classes like that. I really learn so much and it's so fun so fun so fun so fun so fun so fun!!!!!!!!!! Seeing as I childishly spam the words "so fun" you should understand how fun it was!!!!

there is nothing in the silence to be frightened of

I love this picture. It makes me feel like I'm looking into a movie. The actress looking out the car window. As I was.

Christmas just whizzed past. Like. That. Christmas isn't a big deal to me I guess even though I wish it'd be, cause we don't celebrate in big proportions. Family and I caught Sherlock Holmes and it was brilliant. I knew I'd like it when I saw the trailer a long time ago. I'm not very crazy over it - that's sad - but I like it enough! I like smart movies. Changing Appetites was good. In the literal sense of the phrase and also in the sense of the restaurant name. 3/4 of us had ribs which were really good but I couldn't even finish half of the gigantic serving.

I want to watch a lot of other movies now. What if I don't have enough time?! NEW YEAR'S NEXT FRIDAY!!!!!!! I'm even supposed to return a library book that's due today 26 December but I've only managed to read what, a quarter of it? And that's after borrowing it for 6 weeks, extension included. I amaze myself sometimes. Procrastination procrastination, indeed one of the bad habits I hopelessly nurture over every one of the holidays. I must be a master of it by now.

CANNOT WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAY BALLET CLASSES NEXT WEEK HAHAHAHA I DON'T KNOW WHY! Okay maybe I do know why: I'm going to meet Neoyun (!!!). I'm going to die in an RAD Advanced standard equivalent class taught by a teacher who teaches the Vaganova syllabus (!!!). Hmm okay I see the reason now in my pent up excitement.


I still want Chanel No.5 the parfum very much please. VERY. AND YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE MAGNITUDE OF THIS "VERY". THE PAIN OF BEING UNABLE TO HAVE WHAT YOU SO VERY WANT. It's so bloody expensive. And oooh I've loved Audrey Tautou since Amelie Poulain.

Mmm

MY FAVOURITE BALLERINA DEBUTS IN LA BAYADERE! Oh my. As always she's sensational and dramatic. And too beautiful. And she'll be performing as a guest artist with the Paris Opera Ballet next January!!


Maria is so good she leaves me wondering how much better can she get? Maybe a little more and she's reached her limit. Her impeccably clean lines, her neat and wonderfully satisfactory vertiginious turns, gosh. I love her. Then you look at Daniil and you think sheesh, is he human?! WHY IS HE ONLY A SOLOIST IS IT BECAUSE HE LOOKS TOO YOUNG HUH HUH HUH. I've never liked ABT's system.

Gotta love Russian dancers!!!! I still maintain that Russian ballet dancers are the best.

I'm addicted to Imogen.

Mmm what you say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did

'tis the season to be golden

Hello my loves I've been feeling very happy these days because of you my loves. That's why I dub 'tis season the golden season. I'm in love with the holidays. I do what-e-ver I want anytime and turn my day into night, night into day, mixing up my body clock by sleeping at ungodly hours like 6am and waking at 1pm. That's not good of course but my point is, I'm totally enjoying my holidays.

I really really enjoyed my time with the three of you! Y

AWESOME FLEA! I am so up for anymore fleas in future!
Out of all the SDT productions, Swan Lake's the best! I think SDT improved laudably, by heaps and bounds. Chihiro Uchida was soooooo good she's always been my favourite SDT dancer of course! It seems the pas de deux she did in Act II and III were really good giving me goosebumps but her Odette variation was rather weak and her Odile variation honestly not very evil at all. But she has great technique anyway!

Chong and I missed the first part of the show!!!! All thanks to a series of punctuality problems. From both parties. We sprinted from the MRT all the way to the theatre which was by no means easy especially when I had on torture shoes that aren't good to run in even if not for the gnawing pain it gave to my heels. Anyway skip to the end my dad fetched Chong home too hoho. Chong Jia Ling I love you it's always so fun to be with you and I just feel so uplifted.

I need to see scenery. I need to capture the sky in its glory. I need to be reminded of the beauty of nature. I need to know that Singapore is beautiful too. Sometimes, maybe I'm too engulfed in retail dreamland (although I cannot deny I love it, yes maybe too much). I still haven't been to Marina Barrage and I want to go there. And oh, I've never been to Wild Wild Wet before gah.

Are polytechnics these days getting more and more desperate? I've been receiving their magazines/pamphlets/letters since the start of the year and the polys' open houses are being advertised virtually EVERYWHERE and now they have this polyorjc website set up by SP that just seems like SP propaganda to me anyway.

now it's pointless to be a Mosaic Friend

I hate iTunes. I like drag-and-drop so much better it pwns totally as the easiest way to transfer anything. I really hate iTunes.

Kings of Convenience. Completely. Sold. Out. In. Two. Days. I. Am. Devastated.

I shall be content to dream that I shall somehow see them in the near future should they ever come back again or should I study in the UK. My dreams are overlapping one another. Like putting all your eggs into one basket. That makes them very vulnerable doesn't it? Doesn't it.

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Your boy is like a memory
Some sense of touch and a melody
Your girl, she's a renegade
A hurricane that keeps you there, safe
A hurricane that keeps you there, safe

You're cold, maybe you just missed the sun
You fall, feeling like it's just begun
So far, keeping it together's been enough
Look up, rain is falling, looks like love

(What can comfort me now. Music straight from heaven. Stars Y)

calculation theme

A few hours ago my dad officially sealed the order for me using his credit card (albeit quite defeatedly and unhappily) to get the Red Product from Apple's online store. When it was a done deal, and the two big words "Thank You." flashed on my screen, I was still waiting for something to happen. Then I realised nothing else is going to happen. A few hours later a.k.a now my order status reads "Prepared for Shipment" wow that's fast and I need to hyperventilate but my sinus is making it difficult. Please let my iPod arrive on Saturday not Monday please please please I'm getting so impatient already. I NEED A POUCH OR CASE AND DEFINITELY A SCREEN PROTECTOR BUT I'M NOT SURE ABOUT A CLICK WHEEL PROTECTOR. Really I do need them desperately (no I do not like spelling it with two 'a's) I need to go shopping and I must buy the accessories with my own money but my savings are dwindling and I'm not working. I went shopping with Rachel today and my weekly allowance is already completely gone.

Rui says:

*:-O
*you spam money
*like water

my aphorism: that dancers are masochistic

Hi. If you're a dancer, I think you would agree with me that dancers are masochistic. I remember when I was in lower sec and I loved rubbing the bruises I accumulated with glory, especially when training for SYF, and then comparing them excitedly with the other dancers and complaining how torturous the last rehearsal was. But I rarely get bruises now because I learnt how to control my movements.

I'm not actually in the reminiscing mood so I'm not going to continue about that. I've been so busy I haven't been able to blog. Wow. What have I been up to lately? Well for starters my table and shelf are finally rid of the monster of papers and files of yesteryears. Notably I realised while clearing my O level stuff that I'd have to clear all the stuff I've had since sec 1 as well. Basically ALL my secondary school stuff actually. I feel much better now to have half of my table back and half of my shelf ready for JC stuff.

I'm mortally afraid. It's times like these when I have nothing to do that I start to think, think of my results again. It is approximately one more month to results. It's terrifying. I'm afraid of getting a double-digit, of getting Bs, of getting less than perfect scores. More than that, I'm petrified.

Please, please, please let me get what I want. (I was suddenly reminded of this song.)

OKAY NOW ON TO HAPPY THINGS. Life's been good. Yesterday shopping with my mom I bought a hell lot of new clothes and 4 CDs. Translation: I am very happy with my buys!!!!!!!! But I could be happier if only I could lay my hands on a Stars CD, sigh. I could be happiest with a 16GB red iPod nano though. I think I've set my mind to it and I'm going to get it after all since I've soooooooo many songs so I'm going to start saving. I didn't go for Mr Han's ballet master classes so that would've saved the money for a long-term investment like this. (What do I do if I can't get red?!?!)

I loved hanging out with my Choo and my Phoon last Friday. The lucky birthday girl got to meet her favourite Jonghun oppa from FT Island who signed her album and guitar I'm happy for her! We had too much fun clicking away at my camera and the retarded face self-timer and eating our almost two-hour-long lunch. Fish spa was definitely a interesting new experience that I'm not sure I'm brave enough to try again. How frightened I was that my wits ran away and I wanted to run away with them, only Choo and Phoon know. Nevertheless it was a great few hours and I love you both!

Obviously there's a lot more in facebook that I'm lazy to upload here so please help yourself there.

The open house on Saturday was all fun, fun, fun. My Wong Sou Young dongsaeng, I had fun camwhoring with her. Then all those rehearsals. I'm happy to have met lovely people. And I don't think any nerves really hit me hard at all! I'm glad it's over. No more fretting over how I'll mess up in one way or another. This is the variation I did, not en pointe.

back to my couch potato days

I miss Tokyo. From being pampered by the omnipresence of extremely well-mannered, friendly and helpful Japanese (now I don't understand why tourists in Singapore find Singaporeans polite and helpful because we're no match for the Japanese) to extravagant shopping - meaning everything there is bloody expensive - to the breathtaking beauty of the streets and sights to the breezy winter to the unique and especially delicious food. I miss it all. Because I have fallen in love with Tokyo.

I never want to go on tour to any country anymore. Going Free and Easy is really free and easy. I get to wake at 10am (albeit wasting some time) and change my itinerary as and when it suits and not be limited to any one place for a set period of time (remember the tour guide telling you "you have 2 hours to shop here, be back at the bus by 4pm"?) and eat whatever I feel like munching on and most importantly I experience the true culture of Tokyo. Asking for directions became commonplace every few hours but everyone we asked was so willing to help and with the basic Japanese that my mom knows we get by just fine.

Note: I must learn French after A levels. Must.

I've posted 30% of the photos I took in facebook. I know you're not bothered to calculate so I'm just going to tell you that I took a little over 900 photos in this trip. I love my photos.

I FOUND HEAVEN - A DANCE STORE.

There's a touching story behind this dog! Go wiki Hachiko the dog.

Today I watched the Giselle DVD I bought from Chacott in Tokyo!!! It's Alina Cojocaru and Johan Kobborg! Now I've the strong desire to collect all the different ballets' DVDs starring my various idols.

I am supposedddddd to be bumming everyday now with nothing to do. I am bumming, but I have a lot of things to do. Can you believe I haven't even thrown - recycled - my O level stuff yet. It's not that I'm being sentimental and wishing I can still study (I kind of do but that's besides the point) but this just further substantiates how incorrigibly lazy I am.

It's 11:11 PM.

Anyway I've had several dreams taking my Literature O level again recently. Here's a rough depiction: I am partying and some friend tells me that the next day is my Literature O level and I was so shocked and wondered why I didn't remember. Of course I didn't study. I sit for the paper next day and blank out at the seemingly difficult Mockingbird question, hyperventilating and breaking down. I was so frightened and distressed. Then suddenly I remember that my O levels are already over.

I don't like this. I know I did very badly but my subconscious just keeps doggedly reminding me. I can't wait for 2010 I think it'll be a great year I hope it'll be a great year so please let my results be good to start it off with a big bang. Sigh sigh, how did this post turn so depressing. I shall stop here.

for my stonky

I have known you ONE QUARTER OF YOUR LIFE girl. It has been that long. You have been a wonderful friend, fun to be around. It's pretty amazing isn't it. Looking back, it didn't feel SO long ago that I first met you. We were all geeks then, and now especially you are one stunning, sexy, seductive, stonky lady. I will fondly remember the things I've done with you and I hope you will too. Of course you know I'm not in sunny island Singapore right this moment but you know that I still wouldn't want to miss wishing you. You shall always be my stonky Awa honey, because I say so. And thus thus thus, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE! Y

Love, Jashmeen

habits die hard when you got a sentimental heart

How can you resist strawberry frozen yoghurt with oreo toppings!

New Moon is almost like I had expected it. But I'll give credit, it's at least better than Twilight. But throughout the movie I wasn't excited much at all. Omg that is a big Phailure on their part. Anyway have to rant I LOVE ALICE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've always loved her and I always thought Ashley Greene played Alice so well, portrayed her perfectly as the Alice I always imagined. JACOB THE WOLF IS SO ADORABLE ZOMG. I'm sorry to say that Bella and Edward both felt like really flat characters, no improvement since Twilight the movie. Kristen is beautiful but she can't act well enough as Bella IMO okay not with her limited acting capabilities it seems. Bleagh forget it. So the movie was like-that-lor and after that we had BBQ Chicken and frolick and Mr Bean and as we ate, especially during the consumption of our tauhuey, we had the kind of extremely spastic laughs (SPASTIC IN THE REAL SENSE OF THE WORD) where my stomach ached and I teared and I wobbled about unable to stand erect due to uncontrollable fits of such laughter. Somehow we kept doing nonsensical things.

I wish my brother is going to Japan with us. Yes only my parents and I are going apparently since he still has school okay poly schedules are so - I don't know how to phrase this right - unstable. I've been whining these few days urgh I want him to come but oh well... TOMORROW NIGHT JUST TOMORROW NIGHT! I love the feeling of being overseas. Okay finefine technically it's tonight, it being Saturday already.

Today I'm gonna rush through packing, attempt to finish reading a 300-odd-page book in less than a day before returning it to the library immediately, attend Ms Koh's wedding, and do more last-minute packing then zoom off. I'll be back 6 December.

Ms Koh took mug shots of us all during Grad Day and I think this picture is hilarious because 1) I realised Kaylie was holding my cert for me while I blatantly stuck my tongue out at the camera (when everyone else smiled prettily in their mug shots) and 2) look at Jiayan in the background.